Internal conflict.


Time after time, we fall.
But time after time we get ourselves back up again.
This time, we fell once again.
InsyaAllah we'll be able to get back on our feet and become better than who we were.


There's no combination of words I can put on the back of the postcard
No song that I can sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, they are made up of real things
Like shoebox and photographs and sepia-toned loving

And all of these moments 
Just might find their way into my dreams tonight 
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings 
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see 
That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
 
But if all of these dreams 
Might find their way into my day-to-day scene 
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between 
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do 
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together


I am such a paranoid


So many things happened, so many things to take in.
Still trying, still trying. InsyaAllah, we'll all make it through in the end.

Always in my prayers


Syukur Alhamulillah, I'm blessed with health and life to live yet another day with my loved ones.
So many things have happened since I last wrote in here. So many things have been running in my head. I got myself and the people around me so confused so many times. And now, it feels like I'm neither here nor there. I wasn't satisfied with myself, but I'm trying to gain my confidence back again.
I'm so afraid of losing what I've held on to for so long, what I believed in for so long. This is the truth. Trying to change this will take some time but InsyaAllah He will give us the strength to get through this challenging phase. InsyaAllah He will brighten our hearts and minds to make the best decision for each other, and personally for ourselves to get closer to Him.
May He grant us patience and strength.
Amin


It's nice to finally celebrate new year with someone you care for, who cares for you back.
Thank you for everything :)